So, we weren’t submitted to the Embassy yesterday, as we had expected. 3 weeks post court would have been better than the normal, but we were still hopeful. Our children’s medicals are still not complete. There are only two clinics that are approved to handle the US adoption cases so I imagine there is long line to get the children in. It’s likely we’ll be submitted next Wednesday, January 11th, and again at that point we have another 2 week wait to see what the US embassy will say regarding our case.
This wait, along with my already extra emotionally challenging week, could easily make me feel derailed, down, and discouraged. It’s definitely tempting to go there. I said “no” to self pity a long time ago so I just can’t allow an ungrateful heart to be my portion. I choose hope, I choose to look up, and I choose to be happy today no matter what my circumstances may feel like.
There are so many things to be thankful for. One being that there are two less orphans in this world.
This was one of their original referral photos:
Our L looked so heartbroken. His deep, sad eyes hurt my heart every time I studied this picture. I have no idea what this 3 year old has witnessed in his life so far. I can only and don’t want to imagine. He came in to our agency’s care with a fractured leg and quite underweight for his age. It doesn’t take a doctor or a psychologist to tell that his downcast face was a sign of physical and emotional pain. Abandonment.Fear.Rejection. That’s what was written on his heart, but not over his life. He felt fear, God said Love. He knew abandonment, God said Never Forsaken. He stared at rejection straight in the face, and God said Son.
He had L & N on offer for us from before time began. He knew they would be the fulfilled promise of an inheritance. He knew they would fill a deep void the size of children in our hearts. He knew they would help us overcome our own fight with fear and rejection. This whole adoption process is a beautiful picture of the redemptive heart of the Father. He saw the end from the beginning. He says that the final outcome of our story will be sweet and not bitter.
Here’s the second photo we received of our darlings, about a month after we accepted the referral:
Did God whisper in dear, sweet L’s heart that we were coming and that he belonged? After meeting L, I know his God created personality is joyous and happy and content. He never stops laughing or giggling or smiling. He is a delight to our heart as well as his sisters. The original photo was a moment in time captured by a camera so we could learn to pray harder and to never stop contending for the happy boy that he is. I know I will face many a days in which I will need to remind myself of where they have come from in order to leap over a child rearing obstacle. I know life won’t always be laughter or happiness or contentment. But, I know the One who is always these things and who is on offer every day, happy or sad.
I remind myself too of where I’ve come from and I am filled with gratefulness.